Author: srmasters

So today I write in this forum and tonight I will write the actual book.

I have chosen to finally write the book. I did actually write it down in one of my journals and now to the lap top.

I did check out Truman Capote’s books and read some of them. He did have a way of describing EVERYTHING! So it did help with describing more of what I thought or what I was doing at that time. I also watched the series Black Swans which is about the time he spent being “friends” with the swans. It was so nice to see him be a “friend” to the ladies and it was also very sad to see that he used that time with those ladies against them. I believe he was a friend to them at one point but then became jealous or resentment sat in on him and he then decided to expose their secrets and personal information.

I am writing my story of a fun trip with a friend. That friend knows that I am writing it and will see it before anyone else.

Peace Out!

When it’s your story no one can tell you you were right or wrong.

You have your side of how you felt, how you saw it, how you tell it. No one can take that away from you or tell you that what you felt, saw or did was wrong.

It make take some by surprise when you tell your story. It will cause commotion, anger, resentment, and other things but it is YOUR story to tell.

Just because you wait to tell your story does not make it any less true. People wait to tell when they are comfortable, when they see someone else going through it, when they decide they are strong enough.

No shame in telling your story. The shame is always there. Telling is getting it off of yourself and putting it on the person who has wronged you. You are not necessarily trying to shame that person but, letting it out might be the way it is perceived by others. However, get it out, make your mark, tell your story and hopefully one day you will feel empowered and better about what has affected you.

Peace Out!

I try to think what rhymes with 2024 and they only thing I can think of is whore. Yep, I said it.

Look out 2024 I’m a whore.

2024, I need a boyfriend before I become a whore.

it goes on and on but why keep repeating a word I do not want to be nor do I really want to say anymore.

So Happy New Year to you….don’t become a whore.

Peace Out!

I just recently got out of a relationship which I knew from the beginning was not for me. I tried to just go with it and knew it would eventually run its course. When I would try to break up or distance myself I was then made to feel less than trash. I would take this over and over and over. I then thought I could just have sex. No, that would result in him thinking I wanted to be with him. I would tell him over and over that he was not the person I wanted to be with but he refused to hear me. He refused to listen to me and refused to let me go.

He did things to me mentally that I don’t know if I will ever get over. I took him back after all the awful things he did to me. However, when we were together I would remind myself that he was not the one. I was afraid. I am still afraid.

He tried to get me fired from my job and still chooses to stop by my work and act as if nothing is wrong. He tried to shame me regarding my child. He tried to blackmail me. As I write this I still hold back exactly what he did to me as I still can’t believe I went through it. I am still going through it.

Maybe writing it down will help heal me. Maybe it will destroy me. Maybe one day I will trust again.

Peace Out!

Keep it up, Keep it clean, keep it hidden, keep it!

No matter if you keep it or keep it up as long as you are happy then do it.

Keeping things that bring back memories, keeping things that are worth money. Keeping it because you want more.

I kept things over the years for various reasons. I now keep it because it makes me happy to see it.

Keep your heart open and your mind clear and keep marching on

Peace Out!